Pre-sinday post  

aflower2c 43F  
3501 posts
1/13/2018 10:11 am
Pre-sinday post


Yanno that day before sinday where I get to cook a hot breakfast and do a few domestic things.

For the last few weeks I have been pondering over how sex and creativity seem to go hand in hand for me. I had that thought planted in my mind since coming across a reference to it in a book I was reading. She had mentioned how men seem to harness their sex drive into being creative in business or just keeps the competiveness up, but then men are celebrated for their libidos and sexual excursions.
Anyhoo,
As everyone has noticed the downward spiral on my creativity as it was miring in frustration and lack of sexual fitness. Believe me I tried to find partners but by guy 7 I had to take a knee on this. And of course we all understand my hypersexual nature has been there for a very long time (32 yrs and counting), but it never really did me any favors...except for the creativity. So when I read that passage I started thinking about my past and then I started looking through my various writings, pictures, vids, thoughts that I have saved on all sorts of media, and I could see the connection between the two.
BUT, I really needed to get a handle on my addiction to porn, masturbation, and my hyper-view on sex, but am I squashing it soo much that there is no opening for my sexual side to re-focus on creativity in life .
The last 4 months I needed the abstinence, and the will power, but a part of me is worried that if I let the dragon out of the bag again will I spiral into more frustration due to lack of partners.... So yep its fine locked in the cage for now, but I will take it for walks on occasion, then daily exercise, then teach it some new tricks on a healthier way of sexual expression.
I am also believing that my intense control I have over my sexual expression has led my body to revolt against me, a chain reaction of health issues have cropped up in the last 4 months. I also know my personal energy is out of balance now because of it.

So,
What does that mean now for me?
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I have a secret to tell you...a dirty mind is great for creativity.

It has been long understood that creativity and sex are linked. Lovers often express their feelings and desires through creative forms, such as poetry, love letters and painting, regardless of whether it is amateur or masterful works.
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Sexual energy and creative energy are so strongly connected that they impact each other profoundly -- this is pure biology, chemistry and physics in cahoots with one another. Sexual energy fuels inspiration and passion, and when harnessed and properly channeled is a pleasurable and powerful means to motivate us creatively.
quote/unquote
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Painter Cecily Brown has described her work: “I’m reluctant to say I want to capture the sensation of sex, but in a way, I want to transcribe the feeling of heat inside your body, inside your mouth, the feeling of skin on skin, and flesh and graspings. quote/unquote
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The subject is perfect for painting; painting is a metaphor for sex. So I want it caressing; I want it brutal and tender and everything at once.” quote/unquote

Its energy is the basis of creativity, love, ambition, desire, life. Sexuality has gotten all these bad because it’s so powerful.” from the book Positive Energy by Judith Orloff. quote/unquote
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Sex and sexuality is universal, its often the basis for writings, for art, for the love of something...even for this cat it has been the basis of my search for partners, I would also channel my sexual energy into my exercise, my gardens and farm. It allowed me to write about lust and longing, about fantasy and about real experiences.
I have warned partners that my intense energy will wrap around theirs, thus led to my search for alternative means of sexual expression in tantra, sensual sex, BDSM, because I always desired more n more pleasure and sexual creativity, I enjoyed giving to the point that they would avoid me. ...

Where to now?
Well, I will slowly re-awaken the sleeping dragon, I miss my creativity and my lust for life.

Little miss flower

Written from a small city middle of no where kink thinkin kinda gal.


aflower2c 43F  
9683 posts
1/13/2018 10:20 am

Did I also mention that I am an INTJ, which is meaningless to many for various reasons, but I always come across references to personality types so as much as you dislike the term it is everywhere.

When creative meets analytical
“Be less curious about people and more curious about ideas.” ~ Marie Curie

As an intuitive and judging person, an INTJ (especially in their younger years) may feel like they are constantly contradicting themselves, being passionate in their ideals and constantly thirsty for new ideas. At the same time they often feel a deep-seeded desire to convert their own internal chaos into order.

As natural-born strategists, it is very important to the INTJ that their understanding of the world is non-contradictory. This way they are free to use their knowledge to pursue creative solutions to complex problems.

Quite often, their desire for rationality causes them to see social relationships as problems to solve. This tendency can be frustrating for both the individual and the people around them. Although the INTJ might be perfectly capable of experiencing a wide range of emotions, they are not likely to express them in the “heat of the moment”, preferring instead to wait until they have had time to rationalize them in their own mind.


My mind sounds chaotic at times, but is all in due process that it will be sorted and categorized, I search for answers....

Little miss flower

Written from a small city middle of no where kink thinkin kinda gal.


Leegs2012 44M
25048 posts
1/13/2018 10:39 am

Please wrap your intense sexual energy around me. I would love for you to Bound me!!


aflower2c replies on 1/13/2018 11:11 am:
Lol at this point I will still avoid men in my dating range, but I'm sure you have a full dance card already.

HamburgDave2 74M  
15765 posts
1/13/2018 12:49 pm

Have a Great Weekend

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aflower2c replies on 1/13/2018 4:06 pm:
You too!

1tongue4yall 58M
1808 posts
1/14/2018 4:09 am

creativity is a great thing...it keeps the mind active...it is necessary to keep me alive...if i lost my creativity i know i would just shrivel up and die...be creative, be sexual...they are the same


aflower2c replies on 1/14/2018 8:45 am:
Yes that's the next thing to learn, refocus my sexual energy into creativity.

dan_nl_2006 38M
992 posts
1/15/2018 5:19 am

Hope your sinday is full of sins j/k.... I think iit is tottaly fine to reawaken the sleepy dragon . No point in beening misrable ....I know I miss your old blog (if that counts)


aflower2c replies on 1/15/2018 6:42 am:
Some days it's tough to maintain a positive outlook towards sex when you've ran out of good dates. Lol

dan_nl_2006 38M
992 posts
1/15/2018 5:22 am

    Quoting aflower2c:
    Did I also mention that I am an INTJ, which is meaningless to many for various reasons, but I always come across references to personality types so as much as you dislike the term it is everywhere.

    When creative meets analytical
    “Be less curious about people and more curious about ideas.” ~ Marie Curie

    As an intuitive and judging person, an INTJ (especially in their younger years) may feel like they are constantly contradicting themselves, being passionate in their ideals and constantly thirsty for new ideas. At the same time they often feel a deep-seeded desire to convert their own internal chaos into order.

    As natural-born strategists, it is very important to the INTJ that their understanding of the world is non-contradictory. This way they are free to use their knowledge to pursue creative solutions to complex problems.

    Quite often, their desire for rationality causes them to see social relationships as problems to solve. This tendency can be frustrating for both the individual and the people around them. Although the INTJ might be perfectly capable of experiencing a wide range of emotions, they are not likely to express them in the “heat of the moment”, preferring instead to wait until they have had time to rationalize them in their own mind.


    My mind sounds chaotic at times, but is all in due process that it will be sorted and categorized, I search for answers....
Oh my god...I switches between ENTJ and INTJ.
Last time I took the test I was E by 1 point (51


aflower2c replies on 1/17/2018 6:47 pm:
I have tested as an intj for maybe 18 yrs now. Lol. Pretty much since the first time I took the test till now. Also explains why I have trouble finding partners.

discreteSteve62 55M  
1599 posts
1/17/2018 5:28 am

When I first met my wife, I mentioned how much I write, and she later told me that was one of the reasons she wanted to have sex with me. (Then after we did it, she wanted more because she thought my oral was so good.)

Sounds like you would enjoy something like a clothing optional writing workshop, if such a thing existed. Maybe a visit to the city for a kink party would be good for your mood and creativity.


aflower2c replies on 1/17/2018 6:46 pm:
I am going to a kink event, but there won't be any sex. Lol

dan_nl_2006 38M
992 posts
1/20/2018 11:14 am

    Quoting dan_nl_2006:
    Oh my god...I switches between ENTJ and INTJ.
    Last time I took the test I was E by 1 point (51
Is it the "I" part or problem solving part that you think is causing trouble in finding partners?

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I have tested as an intj for maybe 18 yrs now. Lol. Pretty much since the first time I took the test till now. Also explains why I have trouble finding partners.

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